hello world are you listening?

2009-09-16T10:08:00.000-07:00

'it's been a long time' would be an understatement...i think cobwebs were growing on the blog cause its been that long...oh well...the past few months have been eventful to say the least...well not exactly...just met a whole lot of new people....bonded a lot with my class...a whole lot...they are an interesting bunch and also amazingly funny and crazy...still miss my best friends though...i can't just walk to them and want to hit someone or cry and have them convince me it isn't worth it...its just not the same over the phone...i hope we have a get-together soon...

There is a question I've been pondering over since last night...can i hate someone who is so perfect? i mean would it be right to hate them for being everything i ever wanted them to be?everything i was looking for?...i wish i could...but the weird thing is...we are like 'two-peas-in-a-pod'...so alike...we can talk for hours about anything everything and nothing...i know some would think 'if they're so perfect what are you hating them for?' well its cause i could never be with this person....that's what makes me hate them for being so perfect...

i think I'll just throw my self into some project for now to take my mind off this person...if only school had started i could use that as a distraction...

Listening to Taylor Swift just bring back memories...some good...some awkward and some just plain bad...i wish you hadn't chosen one friend over another...It hurt a lot to know that's the path you chose when you knew i would have understood the position you were in...If what you wanted was to make me feel better well you didn't...just made me feel more like a fool than anything...

Zanna!!! help get me outta this emo-ing funk...its depressing...seriously!!!

Hey stephen
I've been holding back this feeling
but I've got some things to say to you...
Cause i can't help it
if you look like an angel
Can't help it
if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic
I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
Mmm, I can't help myself

till my next update!!! Bye!!!

*no title

2009-05-18T07:27:00.000-07:00

what's up with you?...you never give me a straight answer and you want to avoid the topic that should have some importance to you...its like we're back at the beginning and we're never gonna move forward...for once just give me a reasonable,straight answer without me having to guess for myself...

And you...stop being creepy its weird and i keep having to look over my shoulder all the time....people are gonna think I'm the girl with some weird neck problem...but i guess its safe to say you're never going to read this...and if you do...then stop stalking me.

ah finally,almost all i had to say is out in the open...i won't say it all cause then it won't be my secret anymore...i feel so tired and its only been 5 weeks since school started....can't believe I've known my class for over a month....

well,that's all i want to write about for now...Din if you read this...HE"S SOOO TALL!!! my sunshine *goofy smile

i'm bored...

2009-05-17T06:38:00.000-07:00

since i'm bored i shall post smthing that has some meaning to me....and again i appologise to anyone who is waiting for me to update my blog...don't hold your breath....i still have to get the new skin up and that may take a while...

Come home by One republic

Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone
I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in their own place trying to make it righ
tBut I’m tired of justifying
So i say you’ll..
[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and meT
he fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come homeOooh
[Verse 2]
I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..
YeahhWell maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
Until then
[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all
I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come homeOooh
[Interlude]
Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
So hear this now
[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home

i'm back!

2009-02-14T03:49:00.000-08:00

oh god...i nearly forgot about this till recently....actually not true...Jo has been nagging at me to get a new post up:D I'm so sorry love...just been too lazy...

anyway the 'o's are over and done with...i got posted to Temasek Poly....i am kinda excited about it but...i don't know...feels kinda weird...i actually miss school...sad sad human being that i am...but never mind...

well...i shall try to get a new blog skin along with a tag box up n running soon...no promises...but definitely soon...oh and also all my links

i don't know if its just me...but i feel that over the past year people seem to have changed a lot....by people i mean friends...i wish i hadn't been lied to because now i keep doubting what everyone says to me and i hate that...but even with all this i have found my true friends...those who won't judge me for what i say or do...those who won't care what OTHERS say about me....and those who actually stand up for me(thank you steph!) even if it may have been embarrassing at that time...

For now i am going to be thankful for whatever i have and be happy...no one can stop me from that...

P.S if you think that gossipping about me or trying to tarnish my name is going to affect me then go right ahead cause it just shows your maturity level...just remember karma can be a bitch and it can bite you in the ass when you least expect it:D

Romeo save me
I've been feeling so alone
I've been waiting
for you but you never show
love you romeo(this post is for you)

crappy blog...

2008-08-16T07:15:00.000-07:00

what is it with this blog...everytime i try to get a new skin something seems to go wrong...now i lost all my links and my tagboard...if someone knows how i can restore it please tell me...i hope to get a new skin up soon...but it might take a while cause of the 'o's so do bear with me...

zanna i know you still doubt the promise tat i made but i will stick by it...trust me you and about 15 other people share the same sentiment and i know you guys are looking out for me but i hope you guys can bear with me when i slip up cause it's difficult with all thats happening...he's been a frind to me...a good one so its gonna be hard to let go...

If you loved me why'd you let me go?

i don't wanna have to see you happy
i can't even bear to see you smile
nowadays i can't look in your eyes
and when i can it takes a while
told a lot of white lies to hide it all
they're beginning to break me down
though i promise its over now
i don't want you to see the truth in me

i'm sorry

2008-07-04T00:48:00.000-07:00

to the friend i have lost...i am sorry...i wish i had never reacted the way i had...still wish u wld tell me what i did wrong...i realsied what i have done only when i needed this fren the most...forgive me for what i have said...i can't change the past n sorry just won't do it...but i hope u read this cause i can only say that i wish i had listened to your warning...i wish i had listened to you and saved myself all the trouble...

so what do i do now?

2008-07-03T23:59:00.000-07:00

k its been a long time since i have blogged n i'm am very sorry for that jo*sweet innocent smile that always wins you over...
since i've been tagged(thanks a lot jo)
#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
hurt and anger...
#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
realxing on a beach listenin to jason mraz...nt worrying bout anything
#3. If you could be at one place right now, where would it be?
with my besties so tat i cld cry to them bout allthats bothering me
#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
yes and no....see confused...
#5. What's your ideal lover like?
funny,easygoing and should not have panic attacks as often as i do:)
#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved caused loving someone can also hurt...
#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
depends on if the person loves me back...
#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
try my bst to forget and then avoid as much as possible...and also give him my blessings
#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
lots....don't get me started...
#10. What do you want most in life?
happiness and my frens n family
#11. Is being tagged fun.
yes...esp by jo:D
#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
successful,relaxed,happy...i hope... and also having fullfilled all my dreams
#13. Who is the current most important person to you?
myself...n those who don't hurt me with every word they say
#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
crazy beautiful my chocolate devil n the best friend i could ever ask for
#15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
married but poor
#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?
goofy's pet dog pluto or an english terrier...
#17. What are one of those things which you would prefer not to do?
wear my heart on my sleeve...
#18. What kind of person do you think you are?
honestly i will have to get back to you on that
#19. What do you define as a bad day?
depressing, dull, no PE days...
Ok now its time to tag. I'm taggin:Catherine-kaye-sanjay-fatin-gaya-neeraj-karthik

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like
an Indian summerI
n the middle of winter
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters
I will test
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that
IWas looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

i wore my heart on my sleeve
thinking that you would understand
but u somehow don't
so do me a favour
and stop trying to understand me
at all

I don't care what you do with your life. Now you have shown your true colours.

2008-03-14T02:14:00.000-07:00

I don't know what you want me to say cause i don't even know why you are doing this or why you are pulling in people who are not even involved.
Don't worry i have better things to do than waste my time bitching about you.
Now you have made me wonder if what they said was true.
You are not the only person i know so get off my back just because you were late and i had other plan.
So if you have something to say about me then please say it right to my face
And you seriouly need to get over some issues that you have.
Tell me...once you have grown up.

fri-di-dai-di-day

2008-03-14T00:16:00.000-07:00

Ah today was kinda fun...went to Novena Square to get the class t-shirts with Kaye and Catherine.God cat...you have got to come up with better excuses to get out of your house.One day your dad is gonna find ut that your 'Group studying' is actually 'Group jamming' or something else.Ah and Kaye please stop being so early. Its makes me feel so unreliable when you come half an hour before the agreed time.

Shout out to 4E3'08 class:your class t-shirts cost $18.so please pay up before the 25th

jason mraz-i'm yours:
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
I like peaceful melodys
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love
So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

march is coming to an end...boooooo...

March holidays!!!...yay?not quite

2008-03-10T23:22:00.000-07:00

March is usually the month that i look forward to .Mainly because it means that my birthday is near.And also, it means that i have a whole week off from school.No need to wake up at 5.30 and literally sleepwalk there.But this year my March holiday that usually consists of 9 days has been cut short to just 5 days.My teachers seem to think that just because we are the graduaing class it means that we will not get sick of the school.How cruel they are.Even though the 'o's are coming up they should at least give us a little bit more time to recuperate after the 10 weeks of 'hell'.

Well the weekend was not a waste.Although not that exciting at least the guys were there to entertain with their...dumb...antics.Poor Sanjay lost his phone in the Lan gaming centre in AMK.if this had happened to Jai, i would have laughed cause not only would it have lengthened the list of silly things he says or does but it would have given him a reason to change his phone.Instead Poor sanjay lost his new two month old phone.He seemed so down.Until i started punching Jai.Cannot believe that he is in the army.wussy.well came back to TP and ended up eating RAMLEE for dinner.

Shout out to Catherine:i followed your advice but i dn't think that it has settelled any doubts that i have.At least no i can go to the Grand Canyon...or Bukit Timah hill...and try to get the courage to throw myself off it in shame...weee!...not...

Give me reason
But don't give me choice
Cause i'll make the same mistake again
o here i go
I'm not calling for a second chance
I'm creaming at the top of my lungs

i just want to know why
you couldn't have some faith
and take a chance

shitty shitty week

2008-03-01T05:37:00.000-08:00

its been a week since posted my last post.

and its also been a shitty week.

good thing is i finally saw Mishell this week

after so many weeks.

God how i miss them...

at least i can meet mouse , jojo and mishell

during the march holidays

hmm...well i'm going to order my class t-shirts

during the march holidays.

If anyone in my class has any complaints about the shirt

then speak now or forever old your peace.

something happened For the very first time with you

My heart melts into the ground

Found something true

And everyone's looking round

Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say

I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don't know the truth

Trying hard not to hear

But they talk so loud

Their piercing sounds fill my ears

Try to fill me with doubt

Yet I know that the goal

Is to keep me from falling

Nothing's greater

Than the rush that comes with your embrace

And in this world of loneliness

I see your face

help me get over this...and i will be eternelly grateful to you

why oh why

2008-02-22T04:16:00.001-08:00

its sad when you lose someone...
it feels worse when you feel that it was your fault.

well its been nearly two months since i posted something...
firstly i appologise for that.
secondly i wish i could turn back time...
every one says that it isn't my fault but deep down i know that it is...
i have lost a friend...and i have lost this friend for good...
not only do conversations seem strained and forced...we don't even hang out anymore...

thirdly v'day came a day late for me...cause my single friends and i decided to make feb 15 OUR singles v'day....and also cause it was cheaper than buying chocoltate on the eve...i dun noe why all the prices have to go up for that particular day...there wasn't much of a hype this year but i loved the marshmellows from Cathrine and the chocolates from Kaye...well its common tests on monday and i wish i could freeze time like hiro nakamura in Heroes to escape it all...

this has not been a good month for me at all...ARGH...life is cruel...

you need some time to be alone
then you will findwhat you've always known
I've been knockin' at your door
as long as I'm livin'
I'll be waitin'
as long as I'm breathin'
I'll be there
whenever you call me
I'll be waitin'
whenever you need me
I'll be there
I waitfor you to see the light
I can't take it anymore

i can't say what i feel and it seems like i'm drowning...

sanjay was pregnant,navin was groped and jai panicked...

2008-01-02T05:19:00.000-08:00

Well first of all HAPPY NEW YEAR to all those reading this blog.i know its been a long time since i blogged so i apologise to those who have checked the blog when they were bored and were sadly disappointed.A lot has happened since the last time i blogged.school has started...NOOOO...hate waking up early.k i will go straight to the highlight of my new year's eve.My bro's friends decided to come over and spend their new years with us.let me introduce them (in a clockwise order from the left): Sanjay ,Jai ,Neeraj and Navin.

Well firstly lets start with Sanjay: very funny guy.i think he is scared of my dad now due to the amount of food my dad bought for all of them to eat.after eating pizza Mexican chicken drum lets and spring chicken....Sanjay decided tat he had to rest before he went home to give birth to the 'baby' chicken in his stomach...i still dun know why Navin didn't kick him n make him lose that 'baby'. he was actually having difficulty walking or even getting up from the chair for about an hour...poor guy...

Secondly there is Navin : he was also equally filled up by the food but his new years eve present was delivered a little later...by a drunk fifty year old lady...poor boy...well the four guys had to go down to the interchange to send Jai of and to help them digest the food...when they were making their way back they had the luck of having to help a drunk lady to her house...now whats is said form here is only what i heard from Sanjay cause he had a full view of what happened...as Neeraj and Navin tried to hold the lady's hands to keep her from stumbling, her hand somehow found its way to Navin's butt...i kid u not...this was told straight from the 3 guys...the police had to be called in soon after cause they had a little bit of difficulty in getting her into her house...poor guys were later kissed by the lady on their hands and shoulders...they actually wanted to burn their clothes...especially Navin...but couldn't...

Lastly there is Jai : the best of them all. his mum decided to come over as well...what bad timing...well just when Jai least expected it Sanjay told my mum to tell Jai's mum that Jai actually liked some one...this new revelation resulted in jai literally freaking out...and then Sanjay being strangled by Jai's mum for keeping it a secret from her for so long...poor Jai... his hands were shaking from fear and shock...this turned out to be the best 2007 for Jai's mum but sadly the worst for Jai...by the way Jai...i don't feel sorry for being part the group...so cry all u want we won't apologise for it...EVER...i could have written a whole Shakespeare novel with all that happened

I never laughed so hard in my life...this was the result of hanging out with these guys for just two weeks...well i guess that was just about it i do know that on new year's day though there were two tsunami's in Upper Thomson...thanks to the food from the night before and also cause of Sanjay and Navin...well be warned the next update is only on sun day or Saturday...so if u have nothing to do just keep re-reading the whole blog...

bored

2007-12-05T22:51:00.000-08:00

i'm so bored i think watching the hills on mtv...who knows it might not be such a torture...or maybe days of our lives...i need to get out of the house and do something interesting...zanna drag me ut for a movie please ...then i will have something to write about...well i'm done blogging or now...

weirdo

2007-12-04T21:07:00.000-08:00

so right after i had posted my first post two eventful things happened one was pretty hilarious the other was very very sad...let me start with the first...well just as i was about to log off i received a message from msn saying that a guy called Rehan Joli or smthing like that added me...that wasn't the wierd part 3 minutes into the conversation my brother took over cause he found it hilarious and the guy told my brother thinking it was me that he wasn't married and i would like to say that my brother and i only asked him who he was and where he was from...so it nearly went to the point where i wanted to shout at the guy TMI...too much info...anyway if the overload of information wasn't enough i couldn't really understand what the guy was really saying at certain points...this whole drama actually made my mum ,brother and me sit infront of the computer for nearly half an hour laughing at the poor guy! it was mean but we couldn't help it...anyway we decided to get out of that convo as soon as we could...cause i didn't want to miss grey's anatomy due to that convo....

anyway on to the best show on television...grey's anatomy was so sad:( Mcdreamy cried...all for meredith grey...so sweet...its really ad when u see a good loking guy cry...i'm pretty sure many ladies will agree with me...and zanna btw this is what mcdreamy looks like:

so after feeling heartbroken that meredith made Mcdreamy cry...i decided that it hould go into my blog since my life seems pretty boring...and to all my friends who read this i am probably going to avoid MSN at nite for a long time to come...well thats all for now...out...........

firstly hi

2007-12-04T04:31:00.000-08:00

so tis is my frist entry...thanks zanna for helping ...well hi my name is vimi...sweet sixteen...n yes rio i am going 2 be talking bout my day...sorry...any way...my day was pretty boring up until 3 when i decided 2 go 2 the JL expo sale...the things there were pretty cheap even the nike goods like bags...
i choose two with kannia atthi's help...thanks mum for paying for them...
we headed 2 burger king afterwards...n so now i'm watching jackass...those guys r sick...espically johnny knoxville...n tat guy who keeps running around in suits and underwear...now i'm just waiting for grey's anatomy to start...its funny to see my mum cry whenever Mcdreamy does...well thats all for today...zanna gym-ing soon PLEASE!!!!!!!! before i 'kill' u!...i'm out....